My big thing right now, in an effort to bust through the block, is Gotham Writer’s Workshop where I’m studying Fiction writing. I’m using it as a refresher. Hoping to regain the writer that I used to be. I’ll keep you up to date. The course is 10 weeks long so it should move pretty quickly.
As for my photography, I haven’t picked up my camera in a little bit. I’m finding inspiration hard to find here in Fort Collins. I’m hoping that a trip to North Platte might change that.
Okay, so I will see you next week to update you on my progress and I’ll be back for Sunday Morning News:. See you then!
Well I’m still getting used to things. Sorry that I ended up missing yesterday but better late than never.
Let’s get you up to date. The IVF experience was a bust. We were so hopeful but too much was working against us and a retry wouldn’t have had a better chance. So we decided that was enough (all of the medication that I was put on affected my MS) as changed our sights to ourselves.
This will be the year that we work on our own stuff to be the parents that we want to be. We’re looking to adoption and as much as I will miss out on not carrying them myself it won’t change how much I’ll love them.
March is MS month so keep a look out for walks in your area. For me because we’re done with IVF I’m going back to my neurologist this August. I felt that was a little too long so I also have an appointment with a Doctor here in town. In addition to the MS I will also be working to get my stomach right. I have an upper endoscopy and an Oatmeal test for the next two weeks. Hopefully I’ll have an answer then.
Okay all done for now. Have a great day and I’ll be back on Friday!
My last post was November 1, 2013. It was at that point that I became overwhelmed with
the whole IVF ‘thing’. I was taking 4 shots per day and one or two pills as well. I was on top of things with my diet and was hoarding decaffeinated tea to drink during the pregnancy. But, it didn’t work. I am devastated but we’ve decided to adopt so motherhood
is still in my future.
So what now? Now we work on ourselves. I work on my writing and my husband gets his certifications as well as take time to work on his other projects. We take a year and then discuss adoption.
Until then I plan on taking courses through Gotham’s Writer’s Workshop, an online program. As well as writing for other sites. At first I thought that I would go to Suite 101 and write about MS, but now I’m looking at About.com to write about comic books. I’ll let you know how that goes.
Well it is my intention to go back to blogging three times per week. Sunday Morning Coffee, Wellness Wednesday and a blog post each Friday to discuss my creative work. I plan on renaming the Friday blog so I’ll let you know what that is this Friday.
Okay, Have a great evening! I’ll see you again for Wellness Wednesday.
Today is the big day, the beginning of NaNoWriMo(National Novel Writing Month) and I’m hoping that by the end of this month my block will be long gone.
This morning I’ll begin with a 15 to 30 minute ‘free-write’ to warm me up. Then it’s on the the project…Myles: The Real Boy. Inspired by my nephew Myles, his death and his sister. It is made of 10 issues, to go with a typical school year, and each will have a collection of ‘thumbnails’ (sketches of the comic to go with the words).
So today it begins with
Myles: The Real Boy – #1 of 10 Issue #1 – Prisoner 90574281
So I will see you next week update you on my progress. I’ll be back for Sunday Morning News: Stuff & Things. See you then!
One day in September I came up with an awesome writing idea to get me out of my block. Use the month of October to study for my big writing project and then use NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month) in the month of November, actually write and finish it. I’ll be using the Friday posts to discuss my progression with the story and where I’m at each week.
In addition to the reading I need to look for my supplies and whatnots (sketchbook for notes and charcoal pencils) for November as well.
So I will see you next week for National Novel Writing Month Day 1, AKA MTRB: Issue #1. I’ll be back for Sunday Morning News: Playing Catch Up. See you then!
Last Sunday the IVF process began again. This time the timing on the third trimester has been taken into consideration so that I have it during the summer. I began the pill last Sunday, October 13th and we will know if it worked by Christmas. So this holiday will either be the happiest or it will suck to high heaven. But we already have a plan if it doesn’t work this time, so no worries.
I must say that with the first day I felt differently about this attempt. I am really ready for children. I am ready for the good, the bad and the ugly of it all knowing that my husband, B and I will enjoy every minute!
One other thing happened…B and I went to Denver for a Drs appointment and we stopped at a small comic/game shop. We ended up in a long conversation with the owner. He told us of his brother who died of MS at the age of 23! So I begin trying to handle what I’ve just heard and before my imagination had a chance to run with it B asked which class of MS he was? Primary Progressive was his answer and his death was from a common form of death by MS which we will discuss at a later date. But I was able to take it in for the story it was with the help of a caregiver who knows me very well.
So I’m going to sign off for now but to update you I’ll be posting about my writing on Fridays from now on (no photography for a while) because NaNoWriMo begins next month, the piece that I will be taking on is important to me and I want to use this venue to keep myself on track!
I’ll see you again for Wellness Wednesday where I will discuss MS, IVF and Pregnancy.
Well I’ve had an epiphany of sorts. I thought about what I was stressing over, what I was allowing to interfere in my life…
First, I DON’T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT RACIST ASSHOLES WHO THINK THAT MY HUSBAND AND I SHOULDN’T HAVE KIDS! By allowing the Treyvon Martin issue to get in the way I was essentially giving in to THEM. Hopefully his parents will receive the justice they deserve, but I can’t allow their son’s passing to stop me from having a kid.
As far as MS is concerned. I have to remember the likelihood of passing it along. I need to remember the numbers and follow the plan that I noted last week.
I honestly feel that B and I will be awesome parents and I’m looking forward to the chance.
So that’s it for this Wednesday. Next week I have no idea what I’ll be discussing! Until then see you Friday for Thank God its Friday.
Much has happened to affect my decisions regarding having a baby. The first was Treyvon Martin and the Not Guilty Verdict. With that moment I came to realize that we really haven’t come that far…evidently. It was a hard moment for me. The idea that I would HAVE to give the talk to our kids because my husband is White and coming from him I’m not sure how it would be taken. So I decided that I didn’t want to have kids to bring up here where that sort of behavior is okay and you can kill an innocent kid because you have issues with darker skinned people. The idea that I would lose a child just for walking down the wrong street is unbelievable to me. So at that point I didn’t want to do it. After a talk with a very important person (he yelled at me actually) I came back to wanting children.
My husband rescheduled the IVF process for November for a few reasons. 1.) He was probably hoping that I would change my mind. 2.) He knows me VERY well and knows how reactionary I can be on these things. 3.) Rescheduling it to November is better for the MS. Ideally a person with MS would have the third trimester during the summer. Vitamin D is an extremely important vitamin for baby making and MS. Our IVF doctor will be prescribing me weekly Vitamin D in addition to the D that I’m currently taking. This is important because in addition to the Black thing I don’t want to pass along the MS.
So then I find this article stating how MS when found in children (because it can be) is worse than it is for adults! Oh, and did you read how a baby was diagnosed at 20 months!?! So now I have A LOT to think about. WE have a lot to talk about.
I mean I really do want children. I have the boys names chosen and everything. But I don’t want to bring in children to the world to be treated badly for no reason other than their skin color, and I don’t want to bring them here to then get MS at the age of 3.
Sigh. Any advice?
So that’s it for this Wednesday. Next week I’ll be discussing my death. FUN! Until then see you Friday for Thank God its Friday.
I don’t think that I’ve ever been so disappointed. The idea that six women could listen to the testimony, the scream and come back with not guilty. My heart is broken for his family.
It makes me worry about when/if we get to have children. If they’re too dark there could be problems. Either way I know that I’ll have to give them ‘the talk’. The talk on how a Black person behaves and responds in this country. The talk about what could happen to them and what has happened to others in the past. The talk that makes them realize that it’s not going to be so easy. It’s the talk that makes me sad. I wish that this wasn’t necessary.
But for now I feel for Treyvon’s family and the justice that they didn’t receive.